Raw Emotion

So I'll stand

With arms high and heart abandoned

In awe of the One who gave it all

So I'll stand

My soul Lord to You surrendered

All I am is Yours

For the first time tonight, I listened to our youth at church sing this and I stood in quiet prayer questioning if I was truly ready to surrender all to Him.  Normally I would sing right along, my arms high in the air declaring my desire to give everything to Him in response to everything He's given to me.  Tonight, instead, I questioned if I really could follow through with those words.

Its funny how songs can draw out an allegiance in my soul in theory but when theory is threatened by reality the song is suddenly hard to sing.

Today, after court, we heard the words "Start preparing".  Did God have her say that?  Was that His grace in giving us time to let go?  Or was that her lack of knowledge of the God I serve who can move mountains for those who serve Him.  I can't fathom what His will is, what the future holds for our family and for "little bit's" future.  But I know I love Him and him.  I know I have to give my all to both no matter the outcome.

I ask for your prayers for our family as the road gets bumpy and rough.  May we serve Him with abandonment in response to His fullness and goodness, no matter what He asks of us.