Oh my, it's been too long!
I've had so much I've wanted to share, to voice, to narrate as the story of our lives has unfolded. There has been so much The Lord has been teaching us and doing in us and around us over the past several months. Almost daily I have wanted to sit at this computer and put His actions into words on this screen but it has overwhelmed me to try to paint the picture of His hand for your eye to see.
But I'm now at the point that I feel I'm holding back His glory, His lessons, His purposes, and His faithfulness by keeping it all in and I don't want to hide Him.
So, I will begin to fill you in again, slowly but consistently.
My goal is to at least weekly share with you a bit of what God is sharing with me. If I can bring you up to date on the months that have past most recently I will but I can sum it up even now. God has asked much of us.
We began to foster an infant in Aug. We now love a little boy more than our hearts can stand. He's not ours. Everyday we are faced with the knowledge that he's not ours. People mention how hard it must be to love someone you could very easily lose and they can't imagine signing up for that.
My response is what if Christ had said "No". He knew how hard it would be and how much it would hurt. He knew how much He would lose. He still obeyed.
Yes, we may lose him. Our hearts may break forever and I don't know that we will ever heal from it. But we may not lose him. God may allow him to remain with us. It's the risk we have taken to be obedient to our Sovereign God. I know He's called us to serve in the ways we are capable and providing a stable and loving home are our capabilities so we must do it.
We trust His capability to carry us through.
This weekend our vacuum blew up one day and then the next our water heater busted. We are broke. Even if Christmas hadn't just happened, we would still be broke. So, I convinced Jeff to give it 24 hours to pray to let the Lord show His provision and His faithfulness before we started calling our usual financial helpers.
Within that time both were provided at no cost to us. BOTH. NO COST.
God is real. God is faithful. God is sovereign.
If He cares about little things I know He cares about the big ones.
